There are moments when I am presented with a rare opportunity. It is not there long. However, I blow the opportunity and waste the moment. Later, with profound regret, I realize what I did. I cannot recall the moment with its opportunity. It is gone forever, and a similar moment and opportunity may never come. Do I ever know that!
All I can do is remember similar moments that I blew in the past. Once again, I kick myself for acting so foolishly. In vivid detail I recall an entire list of such failures (I seem to keep that list handy in anticipation that it will be needed again.).
It is in such moments of self-inflicted humiliation that (fortunately) I am reminded of how incredible God is. The only person who knows me better than I do (because I can deceive myself) is God. He knows everything bad I do. He knows every mistake I have made. He knows everything I wrongly justified. He even knows every time I deceived myself (I surely did not deceive Him!).
With all that knowledge, He still forgives me! I do not! I cannot! All I seem to be able to do is remember and kick myself! Maybe someday I will let my God teach me how to forgive. Oh, I tell him I will NEVER do it again. But I do, and in deep sorrow I repent. And once again He forgives. With time I forget, and here we go again.
We cannot stand before God because we are good, but because we are forgiven. Our amazing God forgives us through Jesus Christ!
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